A couple of months ago, on my 38th birthday, I started reading and working through the book May Cause Miracles, by Gabby Bernstein.
I've read Gabby's Spirit Junkie previously and I follow her on social media. I knew that a lot of her teaching is based on A Course in Miracles and I've been feeling pulled to study ACIM, so I figured this book would be a good place to start. I also love basically anything that Holly Whitaker of Hip Sobriety does and says, and MCM is one of her recommended resources.
I got started on September 24th and pulled out one of my many composition books. I am basically obsessed with having a big pile of composition books in my office that I can pull out and dedicate to any idea or project. I tried being a Moleskine journal type person but I can't pronounce it and paying that much for a journal goes against everything that my Depression-era grandmother taught me.
Something that I wasn't expecting is that MCM is set up almost like a daily reader or workbook. When I read through the introduction, Gabby explained the model for how to complete the book. I would start each week on Sunday and go for six weeks, reading one day at a time. Each day consists of a morning and an evening practice that take between five to fifteen minutes. Here's a peek at Day 42 which I completed yesterday, WOOT WOOT.
Real talk: one of the biggest things I'm working on in my life right now is learning how to not follow every idea that I get, prioritizing my goals, and finishing what I start. I am finally confronting that my idea-generation is both a blessing and a curse. On the first day of MCM, when I looked ahead at six weeks of daily activities, I wasn't sure I'd be able to finish it. I started anyway.
I forgot to do my evening activities once and I didn't feel well on another night. In the past, I would've beat myself up about that, made myself feel like crap, and quit to avoid "screwing up" again. But I'm working on those kind of behaviors so instead I just completed those missed activities the next morning. It's important to know that this book is digestible and accessible. I think that is very intentional on Gabby's part. For example, most mornings you'll take a few deep breaths, read a paragraph about the day's lesson, and then sit in silence for one minute of reflection. Yes, I said ONE MINUTE. A lot of people avoid meditation and inner work because they think they have to meditate for a ton of time. Gabby reminds us that all we need is a moment of stillness to begin this work.
Evening activities include things like writing letters, journaling, and meditations. This is my one concern with the book. It was a bit confusing and difficult to access the guided meditations which readers are told are on the MCM meditation album. I wasn't sure which meditation to do on which day and I couldn't find all of the meditations. I don't know what happened there and it's unfortunate because this is such a fantastic book and experience. That being said, the old me might've let that frustration derail me. But guess what? I can't control the access to the guided meditations, so I just dealt with it as best I could. If I couldn't find the meditation for that day, I'd do a different one or just sit in silence and breathe for five minutes. In the end, it wasn't that big of a deal and I wouldn't let it stop you from using this book.
Did MCM cause miracles in my life? Absolutely. First, it helped me to commit to and finish a 42-day practice. Second, it got me back in the habit of meditating, if only for a minute each day. I experienced a traumatic brain injury this summer that I'm still recovering from and I had fallen away from my meditation practice during that time. Starting back up at a minute was perfect for me.
The big shifts came from the core teachings in the book, built on ACIM, which helped me to see that I have been living in a fear-based existence. When I read the introduction, it hit me. Fear is my primary addiction. Gabby provides daily mantras for most days and when I found myself thinking negative or fearful thoughts, I would replace them with my mantra. I would immediately feel my heart rate slow down and a sense of peace come over me. I did a lot of work around my ego, forgiveness, and gratitude. Over the course of these seven weeks, I started a daily gratitude practice. Each morning, I write down everything that I'm grateful for in my life. Learning to love what is shifts my energy completely. Rather than focusing on what I don't have or what I want, which creates a sense of lack and surrounds me with negative energy, I am developing an abundance mindset built on the foundation of gratitude. Of course, I have a special composition book for my daily gratitudes.
Another thing I've done is to place some of my favorite mantras where I can see them, right on our bathroom mirror.
MCM definitely takes effort, work, and dedication, but for me, it's been a very humbling, inspiring, and informative experience. If you feel stuck in any area of your life and are open to shifting your mindset completely, I wholeheartedly recommend taking the first step on this journey.
I have a copy of ACIM waiting in the wings. It includes 365 days of lessons! I'm giving myself a bit of time off to consider when I'll start that journey.
Have you read May Cause Miracles or ACIM? What did you think? In what ways have they impacted your life?